Have been drag on to this this LO too. It is a promise that I’ve made for Cal, well.. it happens that one day he said to me that I don’t love him, that is after I’ve punished him for doing something wrong… it strucks me and it hurts me too.. so I’ve been asking myself “am I really that bad as a mom?”

So here.. this is for Cal.

Pattern paper is from Dream Street Papers, flowers from Prima, photo corner from Heidi Swapp, brads from Hot off the press, alphabets from Basic Grey.
Initially I wasn’t sure what embellishment to put on this page. The first flower is the one on the bottom right corner of the photo and it is right at the end of the swirl. After I done that one, I figure maybe I can put flowers on all the swirl’s end, so I did. I’ve use a little heart brad from Queen & Co. too.
The journalling:
Cal, One day when you were only over 4 years old, you have been told not to do certain things but you still carry on, thus I’ve spank your hand and punished you to stand on the corner, suddenly out of nowhere and out of my expectation you said: ”You don’t love me… you really don’t love your child!”
It really hurts me and hurt me deep. It made me ponder if I have done anything wrong in the way in disciplining you, if I haven’t been hugging you more enough, if I haven’t been giving you enough attention everyday, if there is anyone that have been telling you some dreadful lie about me.
Later I start telling you how I love you, why I discipline you and find out why you don’t listen to me. Every night before sleeping, I gave you a big hug and you always demand me to whisper something on your ear like “Be a good boy, don’t be naughty, don’t push your little brother..” Then only you are satisfied and fall into your dreamland.
I may not be a perfect mom to you, but all I want to tell you is: “I do love you, you are still my precious one and I promise that I’ll love you all through my life.”Mummy, Dec 2007

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