That’s it, that’s what I’m most worried about – not living. It is like being alive and yet dead inside. Being there and yet not being there at the same time.

There’s a difference between being there physically and being there mentally. The latter is harder to do most of the time. I’m good in mind wondering even now. I’m actually having my speghetti balognese while doing this post. Some call it multitasking, but in actual fact, to me is mind wondering and having attention deficit. Definitely not being mindfulness. It is being mind fullness.

Most of the time, I question this – of being mind fullness. It is like not knowing what I want, what I actually care. It is also the time that I mind too much on what to say next, ego maybe huh?